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I Can Sit With You Today
Posted: Monday, July 9, 2012 9:46 AM
Joined: 7/9/2012
Posts: 5

I wrote this poem following a particularly painful visit with my darling grandmother. On a recent visit, these words kept coming back to me and I found that they helped me remain with her longer, without expectation, and without getting lost in despair. My hope is that they may do the same for others.



                                            I Can Sit With You Today                                           

I’ve wrestled with this adversary long enough
Now weary and spent
I cry uncle
I cannot change the diagnosis
And I cannot have you back in the way that I would choose
There’s little it seems that I can do
I can sit with you today
I can sit with you and take pleasure in the way it feels to hold your hand
I can appreciate the familiar timbre of your voice
With no need to make sense of the words
I can admire your hair’s striking blend of silver and grey 
And study the complexity of your face
Enshrining it in my memory
For now
I’ll not search the past for recollections of better times
Or allow myself to imagine a future without you
Today is all I have
So it has to be enough
I can sit with you today

Carolyn Rurka




Posted: Monday, July 9, 2012 10:08 AM
Joined: 7/2/2012
Posts: 153

Really moving,  I'm just at a loss,  beautiful words, beautiful sentiment,  thank you so much for sharing!
Posted: Monday, July 9, 2012 1:00 PM
Joined: 7/9/2012
Posts: 5

Thank you for the kind words. I'm glad that it spoke to you and I wish for you the very best. I have 2 more along the same lines that I will add later.
Sea Field
Posted: Tuesday, August 7, 2012 9:05 AM
Joined: 8/5/2012
Posts: 1872

This brought tears to my eyes.  I know this feeling, this knowing.  I too live this moment (at least when I'm having my better moments!).  Thank you so much for sharing.
Posted: Friday, August 10, 2012 1:27 AM
Joined: 8/9/2012
Posts: 6

really touching and emotional i am really moved .I can imagine how u are feeling . I felt the same when i lost grandfather ,You made me remember his memories .






Mama Sue
Posted: Thursday, October 25, 2012 10:05 PM
Joined: 10/23/2012
Posts: 886

I've only been on the message boards a few days.  So glad I found all these kindred spirits.   I too have a poet's soul so I had to check out Musings.   I'm glad I didn't miss your poem,  so touching and well written.           Hope to see more,  Mama Sue
Posted: Friday, October 26, 2012 8:01 AM
Joined: 10/2/2012
Posts: 1283

Carolyn, a very tender, touching, and heartfelt poem from a loving grandaughter...Bless you both.
Posted: Sunday, October 28, 2012 10:33 PM
Joined: 10/28/2012
Posts: 1

Thank you so much for this beautiful poem. It brought tears to my eyes and reminded me of what's important: to make each day count as a blessing. Thank you.
Posted: Saturday, January 12, 2013 10:01 PM
Joined: 1/19/2012
Posts: 7

Posted: Friday, January 25, 2013 8:48 PM
Joined: 6/22/2012
Posts: 100

Beautiful poem, it brought tears.
one daughter
Posted: Saturday, February 9, 2013 12:55 PM
Joined: 1/30/2013
Posts: 1980

Wow really put a lump in my throat & a tear in my eye. Thank u.
Posted: Saturday, February 9, 2013 8:37 PM
Joined: 2/9/2013
Posts: 1

How beautiful.  Thank you for putting in words my feelings.
Posted: Sunday, February 10, 2013 12:01 PM
Joined: 12/30/2012
Posts: 3520

Your words spoke to my heart, reminding me of lost loved ones from my past and others in my future I will lose.  Thank you.
Posted: Saturday, February 23, 2013 12:03 PM
Joined: 2/18/2013
Posts: 1

Thank you so much for these beautiful words. We are watching my Dad rapidily decline. This brought me a new perspective.