I don't know who cries more...he or I.  He is depressed.  I am too.  We are so intertwined and yet so far apart.  I don't know what to do with this grief and crying.  

Where did he go?

Hi Laura, 

I'm so sorry that you are going through this. 

FWIW A couple of things that have helped me.

Demetia related or not I've found that when I'm sad I'm living in either the past or the future. In the moment I often find love and compassion or most often frustration. Love needs no remedy. Frustration sometimes requires that I go around the corner and silently threaten the wall for a while. I forgive myself for my impatience then get back to work being the best example that I can for my LO. 

Demetia or not my LO is my emotional mirror. Sending negative emotions her way is a quick path to misery for both of us. Acting the way I want my LO to act always works eventually. It can take as little as 10 minutes to change the both of our worlds for the better.

I will be sad, I will be frustrated, I will be scared. I have to remember not to stay there any longer than I find necessary.