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Death and Love
A losing hand.
Posted: Tuesday, November 17, 2015 9:56 AM
Joined: 1/16/2013
Posts: 400

 Death leaves a heartache no one can heal.  Love leaves a memory no one can steal.
Posted: Tuesday, November 17, 2015 10:03 AM
Joined: 7/26/2015
Posts: 26

That captures perfectly how I feel after losing my Mom.  But the grief just seems to grow with each passing year.  Like I was walking around in a stupor while she had the Alzheimer's, and now I'm finally waking to the realization that she's gone.
Lesley Jean
Posted: Tuesday, November 17, 2015 11:31 PM
Joined: 2/13/2013
Posts: 2965

I had to get out of the house tonight. I sat at the restaurant and had to hold back my tears. I know it hasn't been long since Jerry passed and only 7 months since I lost my mom, but the emptiness seems to grow every day. 

I look at pictures and cry remembering those great times we had. I cry because we won't be making any more memories. I cry for my children who lost their Dad and for my grandchildren who will never really get to know the wonderful, thoughtful, funny guy their Paw PW was. 

I miss him so much! 


Posted: Wednesday, November 18, 2015 2:09 AM
Joined: 12/15/2011
Posts: 4122

I can't even entertain a memory now because it just gives rise to pain... In other words I don't seem something or hear something that ignites and memory and is still to raw to smile about this-

Its assuring to know that I am not the only one that takes 10 steps back..sometimes i feel its harder as time passes rather than easier

...hanks for sharing; iI feel less lost and less alone with all of you sharing

Posted: Wednesday, November 18, 2015 2:57 PM
Joined: 2/20/2014
Posts: 294

Wish I had words of wisdom and encouragement. If I had posted yesterday I would have been all positive and 'it gets better'. 

Today, not so much.

One of you fine folks said its a step forward and 10 back, or something along those lines.

You were right.

All I know is I'm not reliving the horrors of daily caregiving. 

I know that sounds harsh, but it was horrific to go through. Don't know how we did it. I don't regret anything and I'm glad we were able to take care of Mom. 

I am doing what I need to and hang anyone who wants more out of me.

It is better in November than it was in August.