I have something that might help with overwheming grief.  My DH died at home 01-21-2020 AD at home in his sleep.  For the last year, I have been up and down with grief.  Church had a grief-share group which helped.  Dec 19, 2020 AD we got DH's remains in the ground.  The hold up was waiting on a gravestone to be shipped from Georgia to Nebraska.  That night I prayed to our Creater  to lift the 'spirit of grief' that was overwelming me .  HE DID!!  I awoke the next morning after a good nights sleep feeling that it was gone.  I home this is some help .  God is faithful.

Julie aka bunifoot

My own grief process is really just starting. My Barbara passed this life on December 20, 2020. I had been praying that she might not suffer, and as near as I can tell, she was not in any physical pain. Was she suffering inwardly, seeing her body ravaged by the Parkinson's ? Was she aware of her inability to articulate any but the most simple words or thoughts ?

I don't know. What I do know is that she left a hole that I was not aware of until I found her with cool skin and bluish lips. That hole is being filled, as I learn how to be a single man again, but it won't happen instantly, and I wouldn't want it to. Like a lot of things in life, grief is a journey.

I am currently going through things in our house that were Barbara's, and each of her little " treasures " brings back some kind of memory. Some of those treasures will stay with me, and some will go to other homes, where they can become someone else's treasure.

That hole I spoke of which is being filled.... the filler is my memories.

bunifoot, sorry about your husband. I'm glad you found peace. 

Chrisp, I am sorry to hear of Barbara's passing. Grief is definitely a journey.  

You are both in my prayers.