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Leaving Me, Again.
Courtney
Posted: Friday, July 17, 2015 7:45 AM
Joined: 6/5/2012
Posts: 6


When I was tiny, just around 2, my mom left me for 6 weeks, with my Grandmommy and Step Grandfather. Not a good time . . .

An afternoon of Deep Grief. I have cried off and on from 4:00 - 8:30. Losing my mom is so painful. She is "leaving me" again. It's beyond words - it's guttural. Cellular. Deeper than deep. Indescribable. Undeniable. Irreconsilable. Happening. Real. True. I don't know what to do. Courtney Freeny

Morning has broken. Peace, once again. The sun shines brightly - a gentle breeze now and then. The air is light, crisp, cool. The heaviness of water was dumped into stormy pools. It thundered, it lighteninged, it hailed, it rained . . . winds tore at the trees, as if grief were on display. Then -- stillness. Awakening. Sunlight. Birds singing outside my open window. I can breath, once again. Courtney Freeny

Jim Broede
Posted: Friday, July 17, 2015 5:14 PM
Joined: 12/22/2011
Posts: 5462


Embrace the moment, Courtney. You haven't lost your mom yet. Don"t get ahead of yourself. --Jim