Yesterday after dinner, I was washing the dishes and all of the sudden I get this feeling that I needed to call my mom. It is so strange because it only lasts a second for me to realize it. My brother had told me weeks ago that this was happening to him.

It feels strange because I use to call my mom every day. Now I dont have anyone to call. I talk to my son several times a week, but it's not a daily routine.

Dad didnt like to talk on the phone so I would usually just say hi to him before we hung up, but mom loved to talk and tell me how her day went, etc. Things changed when she forgot how to use the phone, but then she was close enough that I would go see her every day after dinner.

I really miss talking to my mom. I stopped writing in my journal after she passed away. I didnt want to open it anymore because there is so much written there about her and dad going through this disease. Maybe I could use my journal as a way for me to communicate my feelings to/about them.

Still Waters-

A suggestion for you, pick up a new journal book...one that is your Mom's favorite colour, or has a pic  on the front that reminds you of her, and use it Specifically for  conversations with her...and with your Dad too if that feels right...I did that for a bit after Mum passed...

I haven't written in a while, instead I  say things out loud to her during the day..and have created a view out my door to the patio that reminds me of Mum every morning while I have my coffee...these small things may help...

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