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Things will never be the same
Posted: Sunday, August 6, 2017 12:47 PM
Joined: 2/15/2014
Posts: 170

i think I am doing well, but then something hits me in the face.  I watched the movie Ghost this week I know, what was I thinking.  First let me tell you I believe in God, Jesus and heaven.  At the end of the movie he goes towards the light.  For the first time I got the finality of death.  We hopefully meet in heaven, but it will never ever be the same life we had on earth.  I broke down sobbing
Posted: Monday, August 7, 2017 12:16 PM
Joined: 11/30/2011
Posts: 2105

Ghost was a beautiful movie.  Sometimes, I watch movies like that because the crying, the emotion is such a release of stored up emotions that we are so cautious to keep to ourselves.  For that reason, I think it's not a bad thing to watch a movie like that.  It gives us permission to feel our emotions and let them out and we can do it privately without anyone judging us.

I used to cry just going shopping at Target.  I associated Target with my mom.  I did a lot of shopping there for her.

There are triggers everywhere.  These triggers, these thoughts will always be around, we can't help it.  I look in my living room and I can picture my parents sitting there when they visited and I think to myself, they were here, right here a long time ago.  We'll run into these thoughts probably forever, hopefully, in time they soften, and the sadness will be tempered with happier memories.

I want to believe I will see them again, I wish they were with me now, but they had to leave, I know that, they were so sick, they just couldn't stay any longer.  For now, I'll remember them, and they are with me in my mind and heart.  It isn't the same, everything changes.  It's hard to make sense of it, but in time, I hope it gets a little easier.  Take care.

Posted: Monday, August 7, 2017 4:12 PM
Joined: 9/18/2013
Posts: 243

Ghost is one of my favorite movies in which I always cried. Since my mom's death, I find it difficult to watch as it takes on a totally different meaning now for me.