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LGBT Community and Allies
Relationships and Guilt
Hello. I have been with my boyfriend for 4, almost 5, years. I absolutely love him.
Last summer, however, I made the decision to move to Virginia to be closer to my parents. My boyfriend would not be joining me as he was not out to his family and while living at home, was unsure what to tell them. This was all before my diagnosis.
He came out for Thanksgiving. It was awesome! He got to experience what it was like to be out to family here. He loved every bit of it. Two days before he left I learned that they did not think my memory loss was due to a brain injury and thus were looking into other things. My baby left me a bit depressed but chose to be optimistic.
Then, on December 16th I learned that I have dementia. I was hard to swallow, and even harder to share with Jorge. He was angry and hurt and scared and lost... He took nearly 24 hours to deal with the news but decided amidst tears that he did not want to lose me, nor did he want me to take this on alone. He decided that he will be moving here in 3 months to to be my care giver and my partner. So then, why do I feel so guilty? Why am I struggling so much?
He is reading a lot, and he seems to be aware of the many stages, but I feel like I am sentencing him to some type of punishment. Has anyone else felt this way? Am I the only one?
Please share if you have experienced this too.
Hopefully you will get some responses here since there are others on the site.
Adjusting, regardless of situational response, is different for each coupe and family.
Guilt is such an inescapable part of this whole process, no matter if you are a caregiver or a person with early onset of dementia. We all suffer from it, and there are no easy answers. There are so many things to overcome and deal with, it makes your brain feel like it will explode.
Your Partner is on the right path to educate himself about what he can expect and what may happen to the one he loves. He may or may not be able to cope with it all, what is extrodinary is the fact that he loves you and is willing to try.
Hugs, Cynthia (Dahlke)
Thank you Mimi and Dahlke for responding. I honestly had hoped for my shared experiences or affirmations as I see that I have over 100 views. Good or bad, I do want to hear what others have to say. Thanks.
~ John-Richard ~
I am so glad you family embraced you and him. It nice when you scare do something and brave it do...no be shot down for!
There a film out...or coming out, making all the film fest circuits...Alzheimer's A Love Story, by a friend mine, Michael (no on this forum), and his partner Gregory who passed away last Christmas Alzheimer's. I can no wait until I can see it...it might be out now (I just a bit confused all this stuff internet these days and how figure that out).
Michael one my best caregiver friends when I was active in talk about how bridge the worlds caregivers and us dementia....try make a better care model for us, that work both us.
Thank you so much again. I will share this with my BF.
~ John-Richard ~